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Wednesday, April 28, 2004

WELCOME TO HOECH! I will send you some information soon. We are excited about having you as a part of our staff. I look forward to meeting you in June.

Jan Cordes
Principal

Hoech Middle School is a safe, caring environment committed to academic excellence for every student.

Friday, April 23, 2004

Fun things I think you need to know:

1) Joe and I both got Summer School teaching jobs at Ritenour, Hooray!

2) My little sister, Lisa, is one of the best persons I know.

3) I almost always misspell the word judgment.

4) I love the Start Trek TNG episodes about time travel.

5) I remember the T.V. Show Cop Rock.

6) I read Nicholas Sparks Novels without shame.

7) I do not appreciate the color orange unless it is on a pumpkin.

8) I hate cauliflower, and I can't pronounce it right.

9) When the phone rings, my first thought is of fear.

10) My grandmother farted on her own grave, so that we could remember that later and not be so sad.

Thursday, April 22, 2004

Lyndsay is having a baby boy.
Brandi is having baby girl.
Wouldn't it be something if someday I introduced them and they liked each other and fell in love?

Just a fun thought for today.

Letters I could have written today:

Dear Mr. Toll Booth Change Taker,
Thank you for saying, "Buenos Dias," this morning. You being pleasant made me want to be pleasant too.

Dear Green SUV Driver,
Just because you are bigger, doesn't mean you can push me around. You are a bully, and I don't like you.

Dear Ritenour,
You are making me very nervous, and I don't like it. You don't write. You don't call. I may have to break up with you.

Dear Banco Popular,
Would it be so hard for you to credit that $10 check to my account today? You obviously have enough money.

Dear Grandma,
You can stop buying me stuff for my apartment. I want to pick out what I want, not things I will be obligated to use. And please stop making my sister feel bad.

Dear Class,
Please stop being mean to Jorge. Why can't you see he just wants you to like him? I wish you realized that you are the ones that don't deserve his friendship.

With My Deepest Sincerity,
Jennifer

Monday, April 19, 2004

For about two hours this morning I was caught in a dream/ wake world where all the weirdest dreams happen. You're asleep enough to dream, and awake enough to realize you're dreaming.

This morning's dreams:

1. SoeYun came to visit me as I was in a top floor of a warehouse of some sorts. She came on a fold-out couch which soon broke on her arrival. I remember hugging and then telling her, "This is too weird, we'll talk later."

2. My parents, grandma, and sisters were all visiting me, but we were in a different hotel (than the one my parents just stayed at) that had lots of leaves floating in the pool. There was a truck crashed in the middle of the ocean on some rocks, which I saw through a tiny window in my grandma's room after I ripped out the screen. I remember being worried that I would get her bed wet from my swimsuit. They were leaving earlier than expected because they had a long drive. Theresa was eating toast. And I looked at the toaster, and knew I wanted a shiny silver toaster. I remember hoping that no one would buy me a toaster, so I could get a shiny silver toaster. I woke up wanting toast (which is sad because we have no bread or a toaster).

The last dream, I actually mistook for being real. Joe woke up and turned on cartoons really loud. I was so annoyed, couldn't he see that I was asleep? I woke up and looked for the remote to turn off the already off television.

Weirdness. Here's my analytical response to said dreams.

1. I saw Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind with Joe. After the movie, I asked him what he thought and his response was, "It was fine. There's not much to talk about." My heart ached for SoeYun. Jim Carrey slept on a fold-out sofa which I thought was odd during the movie. Therefore, SoeYun came to visit on a fold-out sofa. It probably broke because people were jumping on it high in their panties . . .

2. I miss my family. I miss fall with the leaves turning colors and tumbling from trees. My heart is crashing against my mind at the thought of leaving the ocean. I know I need to leave soon. My swimsuit is still wet crumpled in a ball, and I know I need to hang it up to dry. I am annoyed that my grandma (not the one from the dream though) keeps buying me stuff or my apartment, and I know it is all wrong (as in the toaster). My subconscious is begging for toast.

3. I am just looking for reasons to be annoyed with Joe.

Before I fell asleep last night, I asked God to work out the issues in my life and for some perspective and guidance as I follow His lead. Remind me when I am back in St. Louis that my first purchase should be a toaster.

Friday, April 16, 2004

I just dropped my parents off at the airport. I can't believe they were here and gone already. We had an awesome time together. We flew to a smaller Puerto Rican island, kayaked at night through a bioluminesent bay, toured an old Spanish fort, and did the beach thing daily. We also ate at some of the most awesome restaurants. It was a vacation for me just as much as it was their vacation.

It did reinforce that it is time for me to move back to St. Louis. I felt it all week, I really wanted to go back with them today. Then to make it worse . . . Nelly was on Ellen. Nelly is a sign that it is time. I bet I am the only one that God uses Nelly to speak to!

The Evangels (Week of E group from LCC) were here the week before Easter, and that was a blast! I was so glad that 2 returning students came down-- guys that I am proud to call friends, and an awesome new girl, Haley. We al clicked, and they clicked with my friends here too.

So for the past couple of weeks, I have felt not an ounce of loneliness or boredom or . . . quietness. I am looking forward to some solo time, but also dreading it. I plan on just keeping myself super busy this next month, and I know time will fly.

There is so much on my mind today as I write. So much in this head of mine that needs to be sorted and categorized. I wish SoeYun was here. Sometimes I picture conversations with SoeYun as the two of us sitting on my bed (always back in B-town 2412) surrounded by all my thoughts, worries, dreams, and whims scattered around us in the form of files. We sort through them, and after I feel a sense of clarity and purpose. She helps my world make sense to me.

Jenn's Top 10 List (of things swirling in my brain)-- in the order as they pop out:
1) My overheating car that I need to sell in a month
2) The boxes that need to be shipped back
3) Ritenour. Summer School? Job next year? ?????????
4) The realization that I cannot stay with my parents too long this summer/
5) Joe.
6) Finances
7) Myself- outward appearance-- nails, skin, I feel unpretty right now.
8) The heat
9) My parents getting back safely
10) Year-end things to do: classroom, students' plans/grades, graduation speech, etc.

Feel free to choose one of these "swirls" and fix it for me. Ok, how about some prayer? I already feel better.

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